An Unusual Complication

Tuesday, 3:30am…

The first round of chemo is done!

Chase was supposed to have been released from the hospital this morning… But it looks like his brand new central line (placed on Thursday) is infected. So, unless there is a miracle in the next few hours, Chase will go back into the OR to have the line removed.

What exactly this means for his next chemo or his ability to fight infection (as his white count is already rapidly dropping), the medical team doesn’t know. We have been told that this is the surgeon’s “call” in the next few hours.

In this moment, I have many unanswered questions about what the next few days will hold. I also miss my family and am frustrated to miss that small window to be together again. Along with this feeling there is a thankfulness and relief that they caught the issue while we were still here and that they’re carefully monitoring him.

I’ve been told that I have “every right” to be upset by this unusual “complication.” Really? Just this one? I don’t mean to be facetious, but in my mind, on some level, it’s all been a giant, graphic complication from the moment the local ER doctor walked into the room and said, “It doesn’t look good. The CT shows a large mass in his head.”

Where do we go from here?

Stay tuned …

How will we handle it?
Moment by moment

“Whatever may pass, and whatever lies before me, let me be singing when the evening comes … You’re rich in love, and You’re slow to anger, Your name is great, and Your heart is kind. For all Your goodness I will keep on singing… Ten thousand reasons for my heart to find…”10,000 Reasons (Bless the Lord), Matt Redman

16 responses to “An Unusual Complication

  1. The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases;
    his mercies never come to an end;
    they are new every morning;
    great is your faithfulness. (Lamentations 3:22, 23 ESV)

    No words but these, dearest Ellie. Love you so!

  2. Praying for you this morning. So encouraged by faith that remains through the fire. God will hold you. Praying for your little man…Jesus loves the little children.

  3. Love you, praying & singing that song along with you.

  4. Praying continually…

    • Little Chase, and your family are in my prayers and thought…” Cast thy burden upon the Lord, and he shall sustain thee; he shall never suffer the righteous to be moved.
      Psalm 55:22

  5. Please pray for this precious little boy.
    Please Lord we ask that you heal Chase, that you come into him and take away illness, pain, or any fears associated with his illness.
    Lord we beg you to spare this child any suffering. Please Lord guide this family and let them feel your amazing power and grace, bestow upon them the love, faith and guidance they will need to conquer these trials, we praise you Lord.
    In Jesus name Amen

    Thank you everyone who prays this prayer!

  6. “For God alone, O my soul, wait in silence, for my hope is from him.
    He only is my rock and my salvation, my fortress; I shall not be shaken.
    On God rests my salvation and my glory; my mighty rock, my refuge is God.
    Trust in him at all times, O people; pour out your heart before him;
    God is a refuge for us. […] Once God has spoken; twice have I heard this:
    that power belongs to God, and that to you, O Lord, belongs steadfast love.” Psalm 62:5-8,11-12a

    I was reading this Psalm just the other day, and prayed this for your family. I am encouraged by your faith and trust in the Lord. Your church family misses all of you and we are praying with you (and singing along with you).

    Love, Rob and Saidy

  7. Agreeing with Cathy. I’m singing that song, too. And praying.

  8. Oh sweetie, that’s early for a port infection. I love you and am praying for your patience. I’m available to text while at work. xo
    Tricia

  9. Julie and Austin

    We have been reading your blog daily and will continue to pray for peace and healing. You are loved!

  10. Our children have decided to pray for your sweet boy every two hours today. I will be praying for your mommy heart every two hours as well. Although we do not know you personally, we love you as brothers and sisters in Christ and pray that the Lord reveal himself to you whenever you call on him today.

    <3 Tony, Kelsey, Micah, Faith, Nevaeh, and Granite Holmes <3

  11. Chasey Bear… You are my hero this side of heaven!!!! Love you to heaven and back!!

  12. Marilyn Wileman

    Prayers for Chase and you continuing……

  13. Been following your blog since learning of this with poor Chase. {I work at Crossway with several of your friends from church as well as am good friends with Monica G.} Praying for you all – and so grateful for your realness and honesty here, it’s so refreshing! We are so sad that you’ve been going through all this, but I love so much your post about grace!! God’s grace is truly amazing, and readily sufficient.

  14. I am praying for your little guy and all of you as a family as going through these times seem difficult and hard it also makes us stronger and brings us closer. Will continue praying and always in my thoughts.

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